Monday, February 25, 2013

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow


The first time I experienced snow was in New York. On that day as I walked to the subway stop, I remember stopping to look up at the sky as the pure white, quiet snow fell around me, on my face and onto my warm black trenchcoat.  I stuck out my tongue and tasted my first snowflake.  I caught one and looked at this tiny speck in wonder as it indeed was how snowflakes are drawn -- with those complex crystal designs, each one unique and unlike the other.

Later, I have lived in several countries and gone through more winters.  It seems that the first winter I experience in very country I have moved to is one of the hardest and longest there.  In any case, there is always something new.  In Switzerland, I learned to cross-country ski and snowshoe. In  Sweden, I went cross-country skiing on a frozen lake and lived through their deep dark winters when the sun rises at 10 am and sets at 3 pm, and there is darkness for 18 hours in a day.

Here in Germany this winter, I made my first snowman!



 



Saturday, February 9, 2013

The Cordilleras: Wandering the Way


Here is the original version of an article I wrote a number of years ago about a hike in the Cordilleras, in the Northern Philippines. It was published in a national newspaper with some editorial changes that, I feel, changed the tone of the content a bit, and so I put it back in its original form in my blog.  I recently returned to this mountain and the magic was still there, albeit tainted a bit by the new settlements of people in what is supposedly, a national park.  One of my journeys...

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      I have climbed Mount Pulag more than a dozen times, and always, she has shown me a different face. The first time, she is motherly and serene, gently embracing us with a soft sunrise as we sing songs of welcome and praise. One other time, she is angry and vindictive as she lashes out with furious sheets of rain and howling winds, rattling our pole tents till they give way and we shiver in misery at our bivouac camp. Another time, she radiates with wisdom, as we silently trudge through undulating grasslands dotted with zen-like pools of clear water. On rare times, she mesmerizes us with spectacular sunsets of myriad colors streaking the sky as clouds roll down her sides like waterfalls. But most of the time, she is a mixture of both, giving and taking, as we accept and adapt to her moods.

      Mount Pulag, sacred mountain of the Ibalois and the highest point in Luzon at 9,600 feet lies at the center of the Cordillera Trail, smack on the border of three provinces. Near the summit, the trail separates into four points: to the south lies Babadak where most groups begin their hike; to the west lies the summit and further down, the town of Kabayan, Benguet; to the east lies Nueva Vizcaya; and, to the north lies Ifugao. And this, the Cordillera Way is connected by a network of trails linking
sitios one to the other.


      My climbing partner and I plan a hike through this system of trails, following a route that would start at Kabayan, Benguet, up through the steep Akiki Trail to Mount Pulag, and end at Hungduan, Ifugao, from where we can take a ride home to Manila. We estimate that it would take about 5 days. A cursory look at a map tells us we need to head north, then eastward. We do not bring a map to the climb, only a picture of the terrain in our minds.

      But my story begins after our hike to the summit of Mount Pulag, when we shed our mountaineer skins and wander the way. Our first stop is Lebbeng, Ifugao, perched at the side of a mountain about 6 hours hike from our summit camp and populated by a mere 4 families. When we get there, stooped and barefooted Nana Luisa, seventyish, gathers kamote at a sloping little plot of land behind her hut. A cold drizzle falls while we wait for her to finish her chores. She finally comes down with a load of kamote in her cayabang (a basket with a forehead strap) which as we estimate later, weighs at least forty pounds. Her husband, Apo Tibaldo, comes in soon after from their uma (field) some distance away. We ask if we may stay the night and they offer to let us stay at their sons’ hut, as their sons are elsewhere looking for work. They offer us their dinner of boiled kamote with mountain tea and brown sugar, while we cook our meal of corned beef and rice. We sit in front of the fire inside their hut and as we eat and our eyes water from the smoke, the Apo jokingly remarks “dito iniiyakan namin ang kamote” (“here, we cry for kamote”).

      The next day, Arthur, his son-in-law, worried that we may not find the way, accompanies us to Tinoc, through a shortcut which takes us about 5 hours. In Tinoc, there is a big event, a district meet, and unfortunately, at 3 in the afternoon, just about a hundred percent of the males have imbibed their alcohol. We stay with Brando’s family. Little by little, Brando’s house fills up with inebriated men curious about what they believe to be our “mission”. They cannot understand why we are just walking through and one of them, accuses us straight out of carrying explosives in our backpacks.

     We are completely clueless until it finally comes out that Tinoc was one of Yamashita’s last stands and a great number of treasure hunters had come and sought out his elusive gold. We explain that we are passing through, hiking on our way to Hungduan and our packs are large and heavy because we have to carry a tent, sleeping bags, cooking utensils, a camp stove and enough food for a 5 day hike. They prepare a dinner of pinicpican (a native chicken dish) for us but are still unconvinced about our identities and our purpose. And even after we excuse ourselves to sleep, they continue their drinking and loud discussions, still believing that we are deceiving them and that we are there to get the gold. A retired manong, who earlier in the night claims the cement floor in his drunken stupor, wails out a lullaby “ay ay salidummay, salidummay diway” in his booming baritone. He rants and raves the rest of the night in a dialect I cannot understand, and curses as he knocks over furniture trying to find the door in the deep dark night. I clutch my flashlight to my chest and leave my fate to the heavens.

      I wake up enervated the next day, just as if I had a hangover. After that sleepless night, a strong black brewed coffee revives me. Our host simply says “lasing ako kagabi” (“I was drunk last night”) as if that would make up for all the accusations they had hurled at us the previous day. I think to myself that I would not want to go back to this place, but at the same time, I do not believe that all of Tinoc’s inhabitants are this way. Maybe it was just a case of bad timing: just too much alcohol around. We leave at 7:30 in the morning, and walk ourselves hard to make up for the previous day’s bad trip. By midmorning, I feel much better as the exercise and cool air revives me and relegates the previous day’s events to nothingness.

     We pass Tawang, Gawang, then Binablayan, where we take lunch near a river, overlooking an authentic Ifugao village. A group of men are sitting across a rangtay (hanging bridge) and I cautiously look them in the eye as I say “lumabas kami pay” (“just passing through”), which they answer with a grunt. Along the trail, a man passes us with just an umbrella slung across his shoulders, he had left Abatan on the other side of Tinoc at 7 am to get to Kiangan at 7 pm – a 12 hour hike -- to visit a friend -- no sweat. He excuses himself as he hurries past to his assignation.

      This time, wary of the previous day’s events, we prefer to set up camp rather than stay with the locals. It is nearly dark when we finally find a flat piece of ground a little way up a hill in Wang-Wang. Around 7 pm, a woman and young girl pass by. They have just come from Tinoc for the meet, and are on their way home. We ask her if it is all right to camp here. Manang Alice assents but tries to convince us to come with her -- why here, she says, when she has a home a short distance away -- we can sleep there. But stung by yesterday’s experience, we are content in our simple camp. We tell her that we will pass by the next day and she promises to show us the way to Hungduan.

      Early the next day, we break camp and go to Manang Alice’s. On the way, we pass by another old woman’s home, and her strong lined face breaks out into a smile as she gives us a lukban (pomelo) to take with us, urging us to bring more. We are led by Gerard, young son of Manang Alice, to the start of the old Spanish Trail up in the mountains which will lead us to Hungduan. Again we pass countless rivers and climb up and down countless mountains.

     Here, when you ask for directions, they hardly say left or right, they say pasangat (going up) or salog (going down). The trail goes up, then down, then up a little more, then down to the river. Here, there are so many rivers. We are enticed to take a dip in one -- it is ice-cold, but revitalizing.

     We stop to talk to a group of men building a house. They point out Hungduan in the distance, only, there is a wide chasm that separates it from where we are. The winding dirt road where we are leads to Hungduan, but the men suggest that we instead take a shortcut which goes down maybe a thousand feet to a terraced valley, then up a mountain to Hungduan. I choose the road since I had had enough of ups and downs.

     Bad choice, I realize, after half an hour of unending curves and bends -- it is 5 times the distance as it contours around mountains to get to the other side. A plus is that we pass by two woodcarvers. We snack on pomelo while we chat with Marina who carves wooden dragon masks for sale in Banaue. I buy 2 pieces of masks for 20 pesos. A little way more and we pass a man who peacefully sits Indian-style on cut logs slung across the seats in an open-walled waiting shed facing a grand view of mountains, while carving Egyptian woman cups of adawe wood.

      Four hours later, we are in Hungduan, Ifugao, our goal. A jeep passes here to Banaue, from where we can go to Manila. The townspeople are concerned as to where we would sleep as the regular jeep leaves 4 am the next morning. Some young women quietly run around until they have arranged for us to sleep at the town’s guest house. Luke, the municipal engineer, shows us our lodging and tells us stories about how he is a woodcarver from Hapao, who later takes engineering.

      Our climb is a learning and getting in touch with nature. You realize how petty your troubles are in the face of such simplicity. You learn that you need not fight, but not fighting does not mean giving in. All those zen books will not teach you the zen in the heart of the Cordilleras.

     Always, when I feel the world is too much with me, then I know that it is time to find solace in nature. Nature heals sick spirits. As I walk the Cordillera way, my spirits lift, my soul soars and I am whole again.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Oh, Lance, how you let me down...

I just saw the first part of Lance Armstrong's interview with Oprah this morning.  My reaction was sadness.

Oh, Lance, how you let me down. I read your book "It's not About the Bike," followed your career, cheered as you raced down the Tour d' France lines to victory.  I believed in you, and looked to your example -- that one can overcome all odds -- a single-parent childhood, even cancer -- and be who you were meant to be.  Not just a millionaire, not just the best bike rider in the world, but one with integrity -- one who sticks to his principles even as others give in to weakness.

I watched as you calmly and confidently denied all charges against you, and wondered -- why are those guys picking on you? And thought -- is it because you had redefined the boundaries of what the human body could do? But then, you are beyond human, superhuman -- a god? Maybe you thought so yourself,  and then comes the hubris.

I guess it is not so difficult to succumb to the temptation of seeing yourself on top of the world -- a master of the universe. How far you need to fall now...

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I just watched a continuation of Lance's interview, and now my reaction is one of outrage.  How could anyone do something like that? Live a lie and shove this lie right into the face of the public.  The public can not be blamed for having believed him -- he was playing this perfect role of innocence, as he himself said "a perfect story".  I could see no remorse, no apologies. No regret for having caused pain in people's lives -- those people he tore down and sued for having told the truth and stuck to the truth.  And how about those people who believed in him and looked up to him.  All a lie.  All a lie.  Really reminds me of ancient Greek and Roman mythology -- the protagonist is full of hubris, extreme pride.  Then comes the fall.    

Thursday, January 17, 2013

A Toast to the Sun!

In my previous blog, I was waiting for the results of my blood test to find out why I was having trouble breathing.  I found out yesterday from my doctor that everything seemed normal except for one thing -- my Vitamin D levels were clearly below the expected values. Where a >30 ng/ml was the normal average, mine was at 10.6!  In other words, I had a Vitamin D deficiency, and this may be causing all these weird things I was feeling.  Guess how that comes about -- lack of sunlight!!!

I always wondered why Europeans like sitting out in the sun. I usually try to get away from the sun and under the shade.  Mostly it's because I know how disastrous the sun can be on one's sensitive skin -- causing all sorts of dark spots and skin cancer -- but maybe that's because in the Philippines, we practically have the sun out 365 days a year. 

One actually needs only 15 minutes of sun a day between 10:00 and 14:00 to get these normal Vitamin D levels I was talking about. That's 20,000 IE of Vitamin D. Seems easy, right? Not doable, not here, not now -- the sun is in pretty short supply in this part of the world at this time.  Okay then, Vitamin D supplements should not be too hard to find, right? Wrong again, to get the equivalent of those precious 15 minutes of sun, you would need to eat 400 grams of mackerel, 20 eggs, 4 kilos of pork schnitzel, 20 liters of full milk, 600 grams of avocado, or 1 kilogram of shiitake mushrooms. Obviously not possible, not in a day.  I would go for the 15 minutes of sun anytime.

So, I got to drink in -- the sun! To spike up my levels to the right values, my doctor gave me 150 minutes of sun in a 200,000 IE Vitamin D ampule.  Wow, I can feel that warmth radiating from within me, putting a smile in my face.

Is that why Filipinos are always so good-natured and happy? It's all about the sun, the precious, precious sun!!!

Equivalent to 2 and a half hours of sun!!!
You know I need sun...

Monday, January 14, 2013

Einatmen... Ausatmen...

Lately, I have been having trouble breathing. I feel like I cannot take in a full breath, and that my lungs, ribs and chest do not fully expand.  The anxiety this feeling causes makes me hyperventilate, taking in shallow fast breaths which makes it worse. I then try and control this, relaxing myself and my thoughts and taking deep long breaths -- the way I learned it in yoga classes. Inhaling deeply, I send the air into my belly, then up into my chest, fill my lungs, and expand my ribs.  Exhaling completely, I pull in my stomach and wring out all the remaining air.  I concentrate on doing this for a few breaths and that makes me feel better.

I am worried that the cause of this difficulty in breathing could be one of the serious things that are mentioned in the medical articles I looked up in the internet -- among which are allergies, asthma, thyroid problems, heart problems, pulmonary problems. 

Today, I finally went to a doctor to get to the bottom of this.  She listened to my breathing with a stethoscope -- my back and my chest, then said that seemed okay, but ordered more tests to eliminate other possible problems. I had an allergy test, an EKG, a pulmonary test, and a blood test.  The first three tests did not show anything significantly wrong and I am still to wait for the blood test results.

I then mentioned to the doctor that I also had numbness radiating down my arms to my hands and said it was possibly carpal tunnel. Then she said that maybe I had some tensions in my neck and body that could also affect my breathing. She felt my neck and detected a lot of hardness there and decided to give me acupuncture.

First, my neck and parts of my spine area were massaged, then the doctor scraped a little instrument down my back and when I felt pain, I had to shout out. The doctor then stuck in little needles embedded in plaster at these points. She said to leave it until they fall off.

I am now walking around with little needles stuck in my back.   Hope that works!!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Doing Yoga

One of the first things I look for when I move to a new place is a place where I can do yoga.  I try to find a place close to where I live, with a reasonable price and with good teachers. So far, I've been lucky in the places I've gone to. In Zurich, it was the ETH Zurich yoga classes. In Stockholm, I went to Friskis and Svettis.  Now in Saarbrücken, I found the University Saarland classes to be a good fit. 

It always gives a different energy to go to a live class, and it helps a lot when teachers correct your poses real-time.  However, it takes a lot of time and expense to go to yoga classes so to augment my yoga learning and to further work on my stretches, I do yoga at home with the help of free yoga classes available online.  You can just look for them on www.youtubecom. My favorite online yoga teacher is Esther Ekhart.  You can find a lot of her online classes on youtube or at her website www.ekhartyoga.com.  I have also been following the www.myyogaonline.com classes -- they are giving away 25 days of free yoga this December. Really nice routines!

The web has really changed how we do things.  A lot of things you can now learn and do at home with the best teachers from around the world.  

Friday, December 7, 2012

How to be Happy

Why does it seem that I am never completely happy?  Wherever I am, whatever I do, whatever I have, whatever I achieve -- I can't help but think that there must be some other better place, some other more fun thing to do, some other thing I still need to have, some other thing I must accomplish.

When I go out shopping and buy something that involves choosing something for myself, like getting shoes or a bag, and walk out the door with my buy,  I always wonder -- did I make the right choice?  I get the nagging feeling that maybe it is not exactly the right size (or is it?), that another style was better, or that it was too expensive and another shop could have offered a better deal. Most times, given that you can return or exchange most things here, I go back and change it, the size, the type -- but, even after doing that, I am not any happier, and the whole cycle continues.

My husband says that my problem is that I can not handle having too many choices. If I had no choice then I would be happy with what I have. The TED talk of Dan Gilbert: The Surprising Science of Happiness, which I just watched, confirms this. One portion details studies that he made which in the end points out to the idea that if we are stuck with one option, we are happier than when we have several choices. That's it -- my issue exactly. So what to do about it?

Hmmm, would I be happier having only one choice or several choices .... Haha, the cycle continues.


PS. As Sheryl Crow sings it: "It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got."

PPS. I am happy now, I am finally writing again!